Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Still Waiting

So I guess I'm getting pay back now.  My two week wait went really fast thanks to work, etc.  Then the week inbetween betas went fast too.  Both times, I didn't really get to sit and think and stew and fret until the night before.  Now, I'm getting paid back.  All I can think about is this ultrasound on Thursday!  Is it one or two?  (I'm already into positive-thinking overdrive and feel that it will at least be a healthy one)  Will we get discharged from the RE then or not?  I think about it in the morning, on the drive to work, thoughts pop into my head during work, on the drive home, through dinner, and before I fall asleep!  I guess I'm just so excited that this is finally happening and seeing the ultrasound will mean it's finally happening!  Is it Thursday yet?

Unfortunately since I'm still new on the job I'm not taking a full day off for this HUGE appointment.  It sucks, but such is life.  I'm still new, my director is out so more responsibility is on me, our VP is in the office this week, and our Marketing Director will be in Thursday too.  So I'm taking an extended lunch to go to the Doctor.  I hope that I can stay focused at work that morning!  All I'll be thinking about will be baby, baby, baby.  Tim will be able to join me for the appointment with his work schedule being much more flexible.  He's never been to any of my ultrasounds before, so it should be interesting to see how he reacts to the whole process.  I'm so glad he'll be there!  Is it Thursday yet?

We're still debating on whether or not we should keep the findings secret.  In a "normal pregnancy," couples usually try to wait til out of the first trimester to even let others know they're pregnant.  Then usually, they just keep names and/or gender secret.  We're definitely not in the normal category.  Everyone knew when our procedures were happening and when the bloodwork was being drawn.  We announced our good news at five weeks!  We've been trying out baby names for years now.  Partly because it helped keep us positive through all the procedures through the years.  But now most people know, or have a good idea, of what our choice for names are.  And keeping gender a secret is something I, Miss-Type-A, can not do.  I need To Do lists people!  And those lists are different if it is a boy or a girl.  So we don't have much to keep secret but the chance of twins.  We're debating on not letting anyone know until we find out the genders.  I say debating, because herein lies our fatal flaw.  (Kara is already seeing this coming)  Tim and I are not very good at secrets....and when I say not very good - I mean AWFUL!  So we will see if we'll be able to keep it to ourselves or not.  Plus, how do you post an ultrasound pic without giving that away? 

Is it Thursday yet?


Moe said...

Eeeeek I'm so excited for you!!! I can't wait to hear the good news - but I will TOTALLY understand if you keep it a secret. :)

I hope your ultrasound is absolutely wonderful.

And technically - as I type this...it's Thursday. So HAPPY ULTRASOUND DAY!!


Nick and Kristi said...

Thinking about you guys today...Hope your apt goes well:)

Michelle said...

So here's some incentive to at least tell ME. (I'm a great secret keeper by the way). Nordstrom's Anniversary Sale starts tomorrow and they usually include some amazing baby gifts, but I need to know to buy one or two or three (eek!!) : )